nuh uh

sometimes i get the feeling that to want what you can't have is the essence of life. i have never met anybody who had everything that they truly wanted. sure, i have all of the material possessions that i want. i have a really nice bike, decent clothes, shoes, a house to live in, lots of friends (not that they're material things, but close enough), and pretty much the only "things" that i ever want and can't have are really expensive things that i would probably just drop and ruin anyways. the problem doesn't lie with material objects, it lies with immaterial objects. things that you can't hold, can't really see. things like aspirations. things like relationships. goals, objectives, even experiences are all things that i want, but can't seem to get enough of.

i want to travel. you could argue that traveling is a material thing, but it's not the physical traveling that i want to do, it's the experiencing of a different way of life. i'm drawn to the idea of leaving this ...culture in america and seeing how other people do it. there's something about the everyday, mundane things in a person's life that they pay little attention to, that are often done differently in other cultures. that's what i want to see. that's what i want to experience.

there are a lot of other things i could really type out, but there are too many of them, and i need to get some sleep so i can ride tomorrow morning (in 6 hours... who needs sleep anyways?).